sweet sweet freedom

I am free beyond boundaries.

To occupy my time..just let my mind wander with an aid*inhale slowly and breath deep

Let the surface encompass me in all it's entirety.

I sleep
soundly with no disruption

sleep it all away

and I wake up forgetting Im in your arms

but arise slowly with a smile on my face

just remember..

imitation is the highest form of flattery..

sigh*

the epicenter

To what extent are we able to determine our own locus of control. To what point are we supposed to decide (to the best of our ability) how we feel about our own lives or is this determined for you. Grasp tightly on all that it means to feel responsible, we are supposed to be on a continuum. The perfect balance between two extremes. I don't know how I feel, to spend my time analyzing the minds of the sick you are unable to compare your own to the deprived. Is it selfish of my mind to feed off the information of that which is deemed 'abnormal'? Or is the human curiosity coming out in me, in a car crash scenario?

I can never look away.

Joel

happy birthday to you..

you're twenty two..

love <3

'tis the season

There should be a sign

remember to keep your distance; we don't want any messes.

urrggh! but I guess it's you.... <3

11 days and counting

frozen

I can recall, last May our very first moments in Europe, a moment so vividly I'd swear I was reliving it over and over again. We land in Frankfurt, Germany stuck inside the airport for who knows how long trying to find the baggage claim. The underground train station connects to the airport so we hope on the train and I have yet to experience the foreign continent outside the confines of my transportation. The train we ride now and then peaks out of the tunnels but I still have yet to see anything. When we arrive at our destined stop, we stumble out of the doors still attempting to get used to the backpacks on our backs. The station itself is underground and we go underneith the main road and an escalator takes us up into what I can remember the most terrifying, beautiful, freeing moment of my life. The escalator carries us up onto the main street and I remember squeezing Alyssa's hand as the sunlight touches our faces and the smell fills my brain. I took a picture of her then, so happy she couldn't stop laughing - my hands shaking to reach for my camera I have never felt so alone in my entire life. I capture it: in front of the station, a smile I haven't seen in almost a year. I remember the lump in my throat and feeling sick to my stomach but I have never been so alive and ready to do anything in my entire life. It's been almost one year and I wish I was back there.

I don't even know how I feel about home anymore. Done, played out, experienced. I'm ready for something new to come along, something I know won't wander past me for what will seem like eternity. My passive-aggresive attitude suits my mood; I'll do something about it one day.

sister.. beautiful

My sister Chelsea and her mini photo shoot with the new camera!! Serious Herbal Essance Commercial. Pretty pretty